a person who finally start her first blog

today is a special day for me, which i need to present my master research in front of a professor, an associate professor and a doctor.

The viva session scheduled on 9am in this morning, but it only start on 9.45am. I think maybe the breakfast prepared by PPS is too yummy and this end up the panels enter the studio quite late.

Suzana told me that, she never see that no audiences for a viva session, should I be proud? I told her that I actually had told my friends that I m gonna to viva, but i din told her that i ask my friend not to come when I viva -_-"". As i wish, there is no audience during the 45 min presentation. Don't know why, i just dun like people especially my friend seeing me do presentation, that kind of feeling is quite weird..Anyway there are still 5 people looking at me when I m doing my presentation. 3 of them are panels, one of them is the Mr chair, and the last one is the timbalan dekan for pps.

The open presentation is fine for me as i had prepared it very early. The close Q and A session taken place in meeting room of PPS. Instead of saying being "shoot" maybe I should say the panels discuss with me about the query. Not all the questions that come out from them can be answer by me correctly and confidently. Most of the question they ask is about explanation on the formulation. Seriously, I never think that they will ask me that kind of question. Not easy, not hard, but need time to think about it. I had prepared a lot on the answer when they ask me about the discrepancy on the Etheta component. In the end they don't ask a single question on that.

Maybe because the panels are hungry, they try to finish it at 1pm. Before I leave the room, panel Z say sorry to me cause he had ask a lot of question, he say he ask a lot because he felt this topic is quite interesting and he asked me to further extend it.

"Congratulation, you have passed your master". This is something nice to hear.

今天很不开心，很不快乐，很累，很无奈，要怎样才能开心一点？！觉得我的生活每天都重复着一样的节奏，一样的时间表，我需要假期，一个让我逃避，什么都不用想的假期，但我知道，大家都很忙。。

每晚，都会被她叫醒，我知道她不是有意的，她的痛苦我们一点办法都没有，我还是很pek ceh的回答她。照顾一个病人真的不容易，特别是她不会因为你的照顾而慢慢的好起来，而是越来越严重。。觉得很累。。很累。。很累。。

After the fourth correction, I m approved to pass up my thesis for VIVA(oral presentation). Finally i reach this stage after walking together with my research for 2 and half years.

Feeling a bit relief, finally i can throw away this burden although i know there is another big burden awaiting....

Good luck to your VIVA..

pass up my third thesis draft last week, and i get this thing back.:-(

boss, can you please dun change again the things u write to me last time?!

long time do not really left any words here. quite busy, quite lazy.

I always thought that, the moment I completing my thesis will be a very happy moment. However, it seems like not, due to those bad things happen previously. I thought the family will totally sharing the happiness with me, but the sadness is overwriting my happiness. So it end up like nothing. No matter how, feeling a bit relieve, finally i can rest, finally, i no need to squish my brain on those duno-what-mean equivalence, finally, i no need look at the matlab code, finally it is end! Of course the happiness is overshaded.

I have reported myself on 30/6. So now i m working as a tutor, teaching some labs. My life now like a DC voltage, stable all the while.

Very LOL thing happen on my first lab. I conduct this lab with C, and Dr. N (it is better not to mention their name). When I first enter the lab, I approach Dr. N, and told him I m a tutor who suppose to assist him in the lab. He showed his unease and asking me back

Dr N:you are actually substitute C or just add in to assist?
me: I dont know, I din see her name in the list.
Dr N: (anxious) like this who is going to conduct the lab?
me: I dont know.....

After confirm with the technician that C is coming for the lab, we both relieve. When C enter the lab later than the suppose time, she was shocked why we do not start the lab first. So three of us pushing each other in front to conduct the lab. Finally, C is the one....LOL!

I always thought that the lecturer teaching in front is teaching something which she/he is very expert in. However, this is not the truth. When enter here, only I find out some of the lecturer learn the subject she/he has to teach just before the students. This is very sad...

Last Wed and Mon, finally is my turn to conduct the lab using my broken English. Actually, it is not that hard, as long as we know what we are going to learn or do. The way I delivered the lab is not that good, but I believe I can do it better next time.:-)

I just had an operation on 5 April to remove the 9cm big of ovarian cyst. (so you can see me so free, updating my blog :P) 7/3, I went for a medical check up. To my surprise, I was being told that there was a dermoid cyst (水瘤)　licking on my right ovary. At that moment, I really hate myself for going check up. Doc say I definitely need an operation.

After went for several check up in private hospital and government hospital, the operation was scheduled on 5/4 in Mahkota Medical Center. At first, I really worry, because my grandmom also had an dermoid cyst removal last few months ago, and her cyst is diagnosed to be cancer, plus my mum's condition, I really worry a lot. Before everything is confirmed, I went for several gynaecologists. The more I ask, the more I scare and confused. In the end, I decided to let doc to do everything, if I will have to suffer, there is no way for me to escape.

The time while waiting in the opeation hall is unbearable, scare, worry all come together. I think I had talk something very silly to the anesthesiologist. One thing very terrible is, the operation hall is super super cool. I was shaking before I m in coma condition. I m not sure what happen actually in 2 hours time, I did not even see my doctor before the operation. Just feel that someone had put the oxygen mask on me when the operation is almost finish. I can feel everything afterward, but just cant open my eyes, I know that I m shaking terriblely and they put 3 layer of blanket on me, and they moved me from one operation bed to my bed in ward..Everything seem like happened in just a few seconds, but it actually had took 2 hour of time.

The cyst was being tested and it is benign! Thanks god!